Something About Vertigo

Today Rob is seeing a nephrologist because some recent tests came back with some questionable results and the doctor referred him to a specialist. This latest turn of events has had me more than a little distracted and somewhat reflective. I think about where we are and where we’ve been while also fighting the urge to think about where we might be heading. Continue reading

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Satia’s Fitness: What I’m Doing in April

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On the first of April, I started two challenges. One I found here and the other is one I’ve done before. I do a sun salutation a day, building up to 30 by the end of the month.  Previously, when I created this challenge for myself, I was doing yoga regularly, even beginning most of my practices with a few sun salutations. I was surprised the first time I did this challenge for several reasons.

  • First, I was pleasantly surprised by how much heat a few sun salutations can generate. By the end of the month, I’ll be dripping sweat.
  • Two, I had never ever been able to bring my left foot forward from downward facing dog to the low lunge and land my foot between my hands. I had always had to sort of shuffle my left foot forward. So you can imagine my surprise when, the first time I did the challenge, my left foot landed squarely between my hands for the first time. It was about two weeks into the challenge and didn’t happen every time. But by month’s end, it was happening each and every time.
  • Three, sun salutations really can work the whole body, depending on what kind you do. I do a sun salutation series that I learned when I was younger, a hatha yoga based sequence. This doesn’t challenge the lower body per se but there are variations of surya namaskar that include poses that will challenge the lower body (e.g. triangle, warrior, chair, et al). Still, it can be quite the workout and my body feels so good when I am done.

The thing is, when I did 21 Day Fix back in March, I noticed how much flexibility I had lost and was not happy about it. Part of my motivation for doing this challenge a second time is so that I can regain some of my lost flexibility.

Yesterday, I started doing some more things.

First, I began the 21 Day Fix a second time. I had such success the first time I did the DVDs, that I couldn’t wait to start them again. In fact, I tried a few other DVDs during my week off and I didn’t find anything I liked even half as much as I love Autumn Calabrese’s workouts. Seriously! So I was chomping at the bit to start again. Then I was disappointingly surprised to find I could no longer do some of the moves using the same weights I had used during days 15-21 the first time through. Lesson learned—I won’t be taking a week off after I finish this 21 days! In fact, I don’t intend on taking another break until I leave on a trip in July.

Second, I began using Chalene Johnson’s PiYo. I’m hoping that this program will help restore some of my flexibility. To that end, I had Rob take some “before” pictures of what I can do, using some examples from this book:  Stretching by Suzanne Martin. And yes, I plan on blogging about my PiYo experience just as I had done with 21 Day Fix, here on my “new” blog.

I just need to make time to write up the post! It’s coming. Along with other posts. If I can make the time.

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Happy 53rd

Woke up to gifts on my laptop.

Woke up to gifts on my laptop.

I did my morning sun salutations, my Pilates, and my crunches (35 today).

I did my morning sun salutations, my Pilates, and my crunches (35 today).

I used the bike.

I used the bike.

What 53 looks like.  #nomakeup #nofilter

What 53 looks like. #nomakeup #nofilter

Rob insisted I open one of my gifts.  This is a watercolor my mother did of me and our pets. It was unframed and he has it framed for me.

Rob insisted I open one of my gifts. This is a watercolor my mother did of me and our pets. It was unframed and he had it framed for me.

Rob wanted me to open a gift because he knew Joe & Co were coming over. I had put on some makeup by then.  Erin later said I looked gorgeous.

Rob wanted me to open a gift because he knew Joe & Co were coming over. I had put on some makeup by then. Erin later said I looked gorgeous.

We went to Starbucks so I could get some coffee and an almond filled treat.  We had fresh raspberries in the house. I also had some whipped cream.

We went to Starbucks so I could get some coffee and an almond filled treat. We had fresh raspberries in the house. I also had some whipped cream.

My mother called earlier than I thought and I got to open more gifts.

My mother called earlier than I thought and I got to open more gifts.

This is one of the gifts from my mother.  Doesn't get much more sparkly than this.

This is one of the gifts from my mother. Doesn’t get much more sparkly than this.

Rob went to get Shira and we had pizza.  We had white pizza and . . .

Rob went to get Shira and we had pizza from Blue Moon Pizza. We had white pizza and . . .

. . . we had Thai pizza.  They were both delicious.

. . . we had Thai pizza. They were both delicious.

Then I got to open more gifts.  Shira gave me this gorgeous Madame Alexander doll.

Then I got to open more gifts. Shira gave me this gorgeous Madame Alexander doll.

Rob gave me a new kindle.  Yay!  Marc immediately sent me two ebooks so my new kindle is already loaded.  Woohoo!

Rob gave me a new kindle. Yay! Marc immediately sent me two ebooks so my new kindle is already loaded. Woohoo!

It was a quiet afternoon.  So quiet Shira fell asleep on me.  I read and let her sleep.

It was a quiet afternoon. So quiet Shira fell asleep on me. I read and let her sleep.

We had homemade rosewater ice cream and mini pastries from Publix. (Very disappointed in the pastries which were soggy and three of the cream puffs had no cream.)

We had homemade rosewater ice cream and mini pastries from Publix. (Very disappointed in the pastries which were soggy and three of the cream puffs had no cream.)

Rob took Shira home and we had sushi for dinner.

Rob took Shira home and we had sushi for dinner.

Rob sneaked one more gift into my day just before we started eating the sushi.

Rob sneaked one more gift into my day just before we started eating the sushi.

It was a lovely birthday full of little surprises and a lot of love.

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My Ideal Reader

Imagining my ideal reader didn’t come easily for me. In the years I’ve maintained a blog, my reading audience has always been an ever changing surprise. Younger girls still in high school who won’t listen to their parents would read my long posts about my adult life. Happily married men would read along with their wives about my making new friends, meeting new men, and such. Born-again Christians and New Age Pagans alongside homosexual, pansexual, asexual readers. There seemed to be no focused demographic that I could discern.

My ideal reader, however, would not be classified by such external labels as race or gender, life or lifestyle. Instead, I would love to have readers who actively engage with my blog posts (and not merely when I first read and/or respond on their blog posts). I would like readers who are willing to make a commitment, even if such a commitment moves them outside a personal comfort zone, while having an enthusiasm for trying new things.

I suppose, when it comes right down to it, my ideal reader would be in a place of transition, possibly unhappy and feeling stuck or excited and eager to make some changes. Benjamin Franklin once said, “Without continual growth and progress, such words as improvement, achievement, and success have no meaning.” My ideal reader would be ready to find that meaning, to define it, to refine it, and live life accordingly.

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Why I’m Here and Why Now

“You should do an online journal.”

I snorted. “Why?”

“I think people would read it.”

“Why would anyone want to read about my life?”

“You’d be surprised.”

At the time, it seemed a silly idea but I took on the challenge and, over time, came to appreciate the act of keeping a blog. The first post was made in November, 1999. It’s hard to believe I’ve been keeping a blog, more or less, for nearly 15 years now.

So why am I taking the Blogging 101 course? I have experience, right? I know what I’m doing, don’t I? Well, yes and no. For one thing, on my regular blog, I have become sporadic in my posting. Since coming home from a trip to London, especially, my posts have been few and far between. Also, I have been thinking about writing a series of posts that would focus on a specific topic rather than about my daily life.

Taking the Blogging 101 challenge seemed like the ideal opportunity for me to lay a foundation for what I have planned for my blogging in 2015. I’ve been gathering resources and ideas, brainstorming and making notes along the way. It’s not that I will give up on general blogging, sharing my life. I love doing that and it is easy. And sometimes we become complacent with things that are easy. I want to push myself beyond my comfort zone, to share my passion for journaling and how a journaling practice becomes a powerful tool towards self-reflection and self-awareness, to share what I love with others.

This feels like the right time for me to shift my focus and make room for something new. I’m ready for change. I’m even welcoming it.

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Daily Prompt Post: Resolved

Today’s Daily Prompt asks:  

Have you ever made a New Year’s Resolution that you kept?

Yes, I have.  I feel like I am a work in progress and every year I think of areas of my life where I feel there is room for improvement.  Not everything is something over which I have control, however.  For instance, I am currently unemployed.  I can resolve to be employed by this time next year and that would be foolish because my being employed is not solely determined by my actions.  I can’t even resolve to apply to more jobs than I did the previous year because how many jobs I apply to is contingent upon how many jobs for which I am qualified are listed.

So what about “Lose 10 lbs by the end of the year”?  That certainly seems within my power of control.  But is it really?  If I get on the scale at the end of the year and I’ve only lost 2 lbs did I simply not “keep” my resolution?  Did I fail?  

I don’t think so.  Not if I made conscious and healthier dietary choices throughout the year.  Not if I drank more water and exercised more consistently.  Not if I made an effort to do the right thing for my body.  

What if, instead of losing a mere 2 lbs I actually gained weight?  Surely that would mean I failed, right?  

The problem here is in the concept.  Keeping a resolution does not mean fulfilling it.  Life is complicated and the best laid plans of mice and men often go awry, to paraphrase Robert Burns.  The best of intentions–to lose weight, to drink more water, to read a book or ten–can be waylaid by circumstances beyond your control.

Or my control, anyway.  Do I keep my resolutions?  Absolutely.  Do I fulfill them?  Not always.  Sometimes.  I hold my resolutions, the intentions I make to myself, loosely.  I know where I would like to be by this time next year but I have little control over the end result.  All I can do is focus on today and make choices today that will take me a step closer to fulfilling my resolutions for this year.

Today I will spend time studying.  Today I will spend time reading.  Today I will find an app for my iPod that will help me track my diet and exercise.  BTW, I’m looking for recommendations for an app so you if have one you use and can recommend, I would love to know what it is.  Thanks!

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I am only responsible for the choices I make today.  And trust me, I’ve learned enough about myself to know that the choices I make today may be very different from the ones I make tomorrow.  I can only resolve to do my best with what I am given from one day to the next.

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Daily Prompt Post

I’m such a wild woman.  Today’s Daily Prompt post asks:

Where were you last night when 2012 turned into 2013? Is that where you’d wanted to be?

Where was I?  In bed.

Did I want to be there?  Yes.

And that may be the most boring answer ever but the truth is, that is not only where I was but truly was where I wanted to be.  The holidays were full and wonderful and I loved every minute if it.  But they were coming to a close and today begins a new year.  I was ready for the old one to be behind me.  The earlier I went to bed, the sooner I would wake up to a new day, a new year.

However, at midnight I was not asleep.  My husband came in to kiss me, as is our tradition, regardless of whether or not we are both awake or one of us has sough the solace of sleep.

I am content.

Self Portrait Taken New Year's Eve 2012

Self Portrait Taken New Year’s Eve 2012

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